August 15, 2011

  • I Don't Feel Artistic Anymore...

    All the stuff that happened with artwork and creativity and my mother and father speaking to me and inspiration seems to have vanished.

    Yesterday it rained like hell.  I went to a craft store for a frame and they didn't have what I needed.  I had lunch out, at Wholefoods....

    I came home and went to bed really early,  like around 3PM ,  I just slept. I awoke a few times to go to the bathroom and at midnight to eat cereal and take pills and then got up feeling bored again.  I'm off today.

    I feel totally board and lifeless...  nothing inspires me...

    Last night I told myself I was going through a down period... I'll just ride it out,  but I'm not "down" down,  like sad or negative or anything....

     I feel like an Ex meth addict, happy.  HAHAHHA I happen to think that is pathetically funny but it probably isn't...

    Anyway...  I am having a spot of coffee... I am craving it so am drinking decaf... Now I see the reason they made it.. I totally did not see a reason for the creation of decaf in the past... Now I get it completely..

    I don't know what I will do today.       

    I really don't feel like doing anything...

    I almost feel mechanical,  void of feeling.  That's it...

    I don't feel.
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    I have books but am not sure which one to pick up first.

    I don't even want to go to art classes anymore.  In fact today I have class but I don't even feel like going I think it may be the last class if I haven't missed it already.  I haven't been in 2 weeks,  4 classes.  I had the endoscopy and didn't feel well and didn't go...
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    I don't know what it is.  I feel like I am between things...  Although I am not expecting anything else to happen.
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    I dreamed a long dream but don't really remember.  A long relentless dream.  A store here,  walking there. 
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Comments (2)

  • I know I am bleh too. But from the exhaustion of moving. You know mercury is retrograde, right? I am sure that could be part of your feelings or lack of too. I hope I recieve some of your art work for my collection here. Every one is excited about what art is going up here at the new place. It is time to revolve new stuff into my current Woodland show. ha ha ha. Happy almost Tuesday (a friend and I are refusing to acknowledge the M word) xxoo

  • wow, that's a big shift for you on the art thing - hope you won't feel like you made a mistake by dropping out of classes. hope you're more upbeat soon! peace, Al

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