September 22, 2011
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Goodbye Summer...
...you are just a hazy blur.
I don't remember much of summer. I spent early spring going manic and discovering I had "trigeminal neuralgia" and dealing with medication that caused confused thinking and heavy sedation...
....oh, the Spring ended on a rather painful note. Two solid weeks of nightly headaches from "Suicide Disease" thinking it was a migraine, seeing an ENT and getting my sinuses scoped out in vain, until the appearance of my dead parents as one single unit encouraging me to become an artist, and an explosion of artistic creativity literally overnight prompted my physician to encourage me to see a neurologist.
Anyhow... I am glad that is over. Struggling with powerful medications and trying to live a normal life is difficult. Before that I was anemic and began to consume massive amounts of coffee, replacing even my water intake with coffee to the amount of 3 POTS PER DAY which I BELIEVE encouraged the flare up of the Trigeminal Neuralgia...
Anyhow... that all seems over and here I am, my dull and boring self again , afraid to socialize or meet people and just wanting to sit in my cozy apartment and read or do crossword puzzles as the Fall sits in.
I am trying to do artistic stuff. I am much less creative and motivated.I feel I shift from hemisphere to hemisphere and at the artistic time I was the opposite hemisphere that I am in now.
I used to love Fall the most. The artistic stuff this past Spring and Summer was very positive, something good came of it after all. I did attend a class a The Art Student's League and will so again...
I have a slight sense of uneasiness about me and I am not sure why..
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Comments (4)
If it is of any help, that sense of unease it the usual normal you. I guess, revel in that. It is still in the nineties here with hot suppressive nights. No sign of fall in site. I look forward to cooler weather. My summer was pretty great really. I went to Paris for my birthday. You can't beat that. xxoo
That was a lot to go through. You sure did create a lot of art though.
well here's hoping all the bad is behind you and nothing but good lays ahead! but then again, here comes winter - ick! peace, Al
@queenie -
...you're right, thanks... i forgot.
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