but cannot photograph it well...

my second oil.
oil is interesting
it stays wet for months.
it is a long slow process.
i am not sure what i think about it
it is really messy

i should shoot it in natural light
i don't think i am finished
i like it with more black under the left cheek like before
now that i have fixed the nose

 i will probably paint more on it

.i have not been feeling artistic
then this kind of popped out
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One saw his shadow and the other one didn't.
What could it possibly mean?

I'm hung up on meaning.
Stuff that has it and stuff that doesn't.
It's the stuff that dussent that kills me.

Meaning is subjective and objective.
Life is hardly ever black and white,
except for the fatal points.

I feel much better than in that other post but personal stuff isn't getting done today.
Why would I blog about it?

 I was supposed to go get a blood test today but did not.  I just don't feel like it, no appointment is being missed and I can do it on Tuesday.
 I just don't feel like I have  to justify it to myself although I feel a need to find a reason...

I don't know what to blog anymore but the urge to sit here and type is great.
Xanga automatically  charged me for Premium...  I probably would not have renewed had I known... 
That was actually something possible to know, unlike the dueling goundhogs who see shadows and don't see shadows which voids all meaning.

Today feels void of meaning.  Something is missing. Something is strange (looks up at the calendar to see the moon phase and doesn't see anything specific other than it's waxing... Full moon is next Tuesday...)

You are constantly searching for meaning, changing tenses and persons in midstream. 

No one is the wiser.
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