As a younger person I enjoyed nightly dreams. I used to journalize the dreams regularly and have volumes of recorded dreams. As an adult, I rarely remember my dreams.
Recently I have been having dreams. I should start recording them again. Earlier in the year, while practicing "guided visualizations" of visits to "parallel lives", healing exercises where you visualize yourself in another existence for the purposes of comparisons; one can learn about the self by making comparisons to what one is not, as a technique for personal growth, I came to a great realization.
(some people believe parallel lives exist. I don't visit the world of knowledge vs imagination, belief vs. fantasy. I consider it all just thought unless I can touch it. I believe in quantum physics therefore I think it is possible but I do not believe it is comprehensible with human logic as it works on subatomic levels. It is not important to me to have "truth" as I understand the impossibility of such knowledge. Also "reality" to me is not important enough to debate)
As I was saying, I came to a great realization; all of my life my dreams have taken place in a series of specific localities / personalities. I have grown and aged along with the dream realities... it is interesting.
Enough of the teasing and foreplay and on with last night's dream:
Last night I dreamed I was in a Dr.'s office. He was an old Asian man and it was typical physician's set up. I was sitting on the chair and he was interviewing me. There was a cabinet door which was open between us which blocked my view and the Dr. got up on a ladder to get something from another higher shelf and he fell. His stethoscope was dangling from the knob of one of the cabinet doors where it had caught...
I heard it but did not see, I had to get out of my chair and move around the obstacle between us to see him lying on the floor in a crumpled heap, naked. His clothing had come off. He was a fragile old Asian man and now I was rushing to help him up from the floor.
Obviously I am too close and it is too early to get a proper interpretation of this dream, but there is a concern I have with medication in one area of my health care that I think this may be related to.
I am feeling, related to my headaches, and now my colonoscopy and the possibility of mental health concerns, that I should take one step at a time and not do two things at once, if I change or begin more than one medication, I won't know what is responsible for what. I disagreed with a Dr. who gave me something for sleep.
The medication I am taking for "Pain" also makes me sleep, calm, groggy, confused, slightly possibly blurs my already fading presbyopia vision and makes me piss more and I already have a swollen prostrate.
I am very sensitive to medications... In fact, I often use them for the side effects alone... that is what the migraine medication is being used for, it is really an anti-seizure medication and the Dr. who gave me the medication for "sleep" is also an off label use of THAT chemical...
I think Americans are WAY to free with medications and if you combine them how the heck are you gonna know what is causing what???
Unless you are in a dire situation and just need immediate relief.
I made a mistake by going to different types of Dr.s and present a problem to one which I was actually visiting the other for, and had just stopped by just cuz I was in the neighborhood and needed refills.
I thought it was "kismet" and "fated" to have happened to be that way. Pain and confused thinking will do that.
Anyhow.... life is funny isn't it. In retrospect... I don't like to jump the gun. I see how easily people can assume neediness, helplessness, dependence and all of that....
If you present the same problem to different types of Dr.s at the same time you may end up just getting confused...
I honestly did not need it and did not take it and it was because I did not express myself clearly...
In fact, I should not have seen this Dr. in relation to these headaches until I rule out anything physical...
I am talking about my ability to produce art and the idea that my parent's ghost came to see me. I questioned my own mental health but now I do think that mental confusion is caused by severe and intense chronic pain.
I think this dream is related... I don't know. Symbols: Doctor, Asian Doctor, Obstacle between me and Doctor, Doctor falls and is nude on floor, helpless / tables are turned I am helping Doctor...
stethoscope "dangling from knob"..... were this a few years back in a different time and context this would stick out (pun is very intentional) however this actually may be just a smoking cigar...
I will mull it over... What do YOU think it could mean and I am obviously worried about my physical health...
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